Halloween

I love Halloween. Maybe its because I work in a preschool and I'm a little kid at heart. Maybe its because I love candy so much. I think the reason that I love Halloween so much is because I get to show off some skin. As a senior in high school this year, we are allowed to wear out costumes to school. I am being Michael Phelps. Olympic gold medalist swimmer. my costume just came in the mail. My uncle FedExed a speedo to me. That will be my attire around school for the day. A speedo, a towel around my neck, some gold medals, a swim cap, and goggles. I am very excited to see how my teachers and principal react...

A Stressful Time

So around this time, every high school senior in the country is or should be freaking out. College is coming up, school is becoming vigorous (especially for those of us taking AP courses), and this is all while trying to balance spare time with friends, family, working, sports, and by oneself. However life has been particularly stressful for me the past week....
First of all, one of my good friends Nils had another party. This time his mom found out about it. What luck?!?!? So his basement is officially and forever closed. Oh well we had a good run. In addition, she decided to call my mother. Fortunately, I had been honest with my mom so she was not mad, but still it felt like I had betrayed the two of them and lost their trust. Now at this party, Christina came. She like everyone else slept there. However, she lied to her parents and when they found out, it was not pretty. She is currently grounded for eternity and the next time I go over her house, her dad wants to have a little "chat". This is the same dad who has the gun.
The next day, she and I were texting and she asked how many girls I had slept with. I answered honestly, 1. I then asked her the same thing. Her response: 3. I was extremely frustrated by this because she has accused me of being a player since we first started talking. Little did I know she was a player to the MAX. She then went on to tell me that she had cheated on her last boyfriend!! How am I supposed to realistically trust a girl who admits something like that. Even worse was the fact that the day before she had gotten my permission to go to a laungiere party with her friends. Now how am I supposed to take my permission back? Its frustrating.
This is not even the worst part. All of my friends have all but stopped talking to me, and none of them will tell me why. And they all are denying it, but I can tell when they are pissed and they are. Sometimes I just wish high school was over... Oh wait, it almost is.

Anniversary

Today is three special days in one. It was the fall festival at my work, its my girlfriend's birthday and most importantly, its my parents anniversary. Well, I don't know how important it actually is. I was so happy for them. 20+ years of love. Not quite love though, I'd say mutual acceptance. I don't know what it is, but they never really seem to love each other the way I imagine a married couple should. I just got home from work and all I hear is my mom yelling at my dad for my dad's intolerance of her religious beliefs. Need I remind you that this is their anniversary. I love them both so much and there is nothing in the world I want more than their happiness, but it doesn't always seem that they want the same thing. My entire plan today was to get along with my sisters, do some work around the house, and get some college work done. My entire plan has now vanished just because hearing that argument makes me think that if they don't want a pleasant anniversary then why should I. And Christina has plans tonight so I can't hang out with her for her birthday either. It really upsets me though. I know they don't want to get a divorce, but sometimes I wonder if its not the best idea. I love them both equally and so so much. But sometimes I wonder if they love each other equally...

Relationships

So I have never been a real relationship guy. I'm not into holding hands, I don't do PDA, I don't talk on the phone and I get bored easily. So how am I supposed to be a relationship guy. This girl I went out with last week, I really like her. There are very few girls I've been able to say that about but this its true. I just don't know what I am supposed to do. We went on four dates last week. Four. She has already met my family and my friends and I have met hers. I wish I knew how to handle relationships. Not that anyone reads this, but if you do and you have any advice, don't hesitate to comment.

Date Night

So last night was Saturday. Date night. I went out with this girl from the town next to mine. It was our first date. Let me tell you how awkward some parts of it were...
First of all, I work with her mom. So when I walk up to the door and see one of my co workers there waiting, it kind of freaked me out. We went through the introductions, I said hi to everyone, then I get to meet her dad. That is always the worst part for me, meeting the parents. I've already written about how I am not the epitomy of a parents' dream. So I see this jacked Italian man walking toward me, and I come close to turning and bolting out the door. Later, Christina would tell me that he has a gun... awesome.
Then we go to the restaurant. Cheesecake factory, my favorite. We get there and its an hour long wait. So we decide to walk around the mall while we have time to kill. I hate the mall. Its big, and overwhelming, and I can never afford anything in it. It was fun though, we had some good laughs, I got to know her better which was really nice.
We finally go in for dinner. What does she decide to order? a 17 dollar piece of chicken. I'm 17. I can't afford that kind of luxury. Then she tells me what I want. Its a 16 dollar piece of chicken. Great. Fortunately the food was good. I got out eaten, but I was fine with it. If she can eat as much as she did and still look as good as she does then who am I to care? Then I took her back to my house to meet my parents. She was so nervous. Little did she know that my mom is the bees knees. My mom liked her a lot and the final uncomfortable situations was over.
So that was it. I kinda liked this girl so I'm thinking we might go out again soon. Hopefully I don't open the door and see a 12 gauge shotgun staring back in my face.

Nothing

I wish I had something a little more interesting to talk about...

My Job

There is nothing more satisfying than working in an area that I really enjoy. I have had a few different jobs, in food, retail, and customer service, but none are as rewarding as my current job as a pre school teacher. I work everyday after school, 3:30-6:00. The kids love me and I love them. It is so simple; I keep them from killing each other and play tag all day. They are so adorable. One girl suffers from down syndrome and I love her so much. The other day she looked at me with her sparkling eyes, dragged a finger down her cheek and said "cry!"
"I don't wanna cry Kaltrina, I'm happy"
"Cry"
In order to appease this young child I pretended to cry. Fake tears began to flow and I covered my face in my hands. I looked up to see Kaltrina staring back at me. She cracked the biggest smile, ran up to me with her arms spread and gave me the most amazing hug I have ever seen. As I laughed out of astonishment and happiness I heard her say "I love you"
Events like this are regular, and I think that its the type of thing that I want to do when I actually do go to college.
Plus it does not hurt that I work with recently graduated college females =)